If you leave it for a few days it gets all soft and useless

Thought about inviting Sally over today, decided against it. I need these cogs to click. How irritating that hours and days can be spent with the wrong tools getting nowhere, where it would take no time at all in the right frame of mind. I'd make a mint if I sold frame of mind.

Maybe this ginger will zing my system. Decisions on hair have finally reached a sumise, grow the fucker. I wish I was flexible. Ugh, cannot wait to lose my mind to the oblivion of vodka. Back to the comfort zone.

Le Subjonctif

Here's a funny social situation:

toddlers in public. What a delight when your local sporting/entertainment outing is blessed by the presence of a little bundle of joy. One particularily sociable person will engage the child in some game, the fascinated infant transfixed with this stranger. The game gets funnier and funnier, risks are being taken, everyone is laughing, mother is thinking, gosh why don't I do this more often? Suddenly the stranger goes too far, the kid has stumbled in excitement or has been prodded a little too zealously. A horrific sound fills the air, the kid is screaming, crying, wailing, no one is laughing, the mother rushes to its comfort, all the attention is centred on this noise producer. And the stranger is sitting in the corner mortified and thinking "oh god make it stop"

Had coffee with Maaike today. My style is terrible, a result of my poverty and mauvais choix. I should just chuck out everything I own and start again. I should be an abercrombie model.

Funny how their ads don't include a lot of clothing.

She's bored and she's coming over

Man it gets dark early these days.

I want excuses to do my hair and sing and dance and drink and smoke. That used to be friends but not anymore

Today the woman I talked to 9 months ago was at the bus stop again. We had a pleasant chat, about weather (as it always starts) then about France and her daughters gall bladder operation. I think its important to keep your interpersonal skills up to date.

Honey and Aki had a stare off today. My immediate reaction is always to get Aki the hell out of there, to protect my sweet Honey. But dad just told me to leave them, social experimenter as he is, and they just gazed into each others eyes. Maybe they're falling in love.

So look at this wine, it only costs $180

I saw a girl at curtin shops today. She was wearing a skinny salmon cardigan and had wavy long dirty blonde hair. She seems like that kind of girl I would fall in love with if I was a man. Not if I was a lesbian, I think I'd like them butchier. Sometimes I wish I was that girl.

It's easy to write off an entire place and time, until you look for diamonds in the rough, and I think we all think we are a little diamond in the rough. I dunno how many carats though.

Talking of carrots, I plan to make a lovely smoothie get me red blooded tomorrow morning, habitually would this turn me orange? My mum thinks so.

I've staved off writing a blog for a long time. Now I just want to write something that I might be proud to look back on. Tough chance, everything else I wrote as an adolescence repulsed me.

I'm really enjoying "taking picture" by Anne whats-her-name. It's nice to get back into books, that take you somewhere more interesting than you occupy physically.

I want to watch the inconvenient truth, firstly I feel I'm missing out on something, and I feel in the mood for some guilt.